Screen all calls.
Answer most of them;
it’s better than being alone
with your thoughts.
Make no plans.
But visit your brother’s wife,
his children,
and your sisters.
Accept all hugs,
especially the fierce ones.
Stop explaining how great he was.
Everyone knows already.
Dive into sleep.
It gets rid of the night,
and you won’t always feel sick
on wakening.
Wear your favourite colours.
But don’t look in the mirror.
Remember him
in his red sweater.
Listen to music.
Even though it makes you cry.
Put tissues in every room,
slice cucumber for your eyes.
Tear a hole in May
let the calendar slip back to April.
Replay your last conversation
Over and over.
Tell yourself
you couldn’t have saved him.
Try hard every second
to believe it.
Eat
Sleep
Shower
Scream like crazy.